Tuesday, April 17, 2012

Catch Up

Goodness!
I sorely overestimated the amount of time I would have during the day in which to post in!
So, here I am, sorry for being so tardy with my update.
The newest new news is that my liver is back to normal!!! Also, my body is slowly healing. The not-so-nice news that accompanies this is that: I will get mono again. >sigh<
The second great news is that: I have been working at my new job for a few weeks now, and I'm having an amazing time! Every day is an adventure, and days like today were REALLY challenging, but they help me to grow in what I know how to do. (or learn what I don't know how to do)

My family reality:
The day after I was admitted to the ER I called Yakima to return a call I had gotten when I was asleep the previous evening. I talked with my brother for about 45 minutes and over the course of our conversation he mentioned some things that need prayer: depression is the main concern. He's a teen, going to be 15 this November and he doesn't have a stable peer group, or set of good role models surrounding him with support.
So, some slightly more severe topics were touched on, and I knew that I had to go and confront my mother with my brothers' reality. So I readied my things to leave to go there that Thursday. I called my mother on Wednesday night telling her I was coming the next morning. She freaked out and by the end of our conversation I was disowned. She does not wish to see me or hear from me or have me speaking to my brother.
In her twisted way she says I'm "using him" for information about the family, and she doesn't want me "influencing him" or "hurting him". She has effectively cut him off from people who care about him, and people he cares about. Isolation is not a healthy thing for a teenager.

In another note, I told my brother that I had mono when I talked to him, he told my mother and my mother told dad, and dad called me.
He asked me how I was, where I was, what I was doing, where I was working... and I asked him why he called. "He said because my mother told him"
No other reason.
It was a brick wall.
No truth was there, no seeking resolution, no trying to mend our relationship. just a silence like he was waiting for me to say something.
I had the decency to not hang up on him.

Its rather an odd mixture of feelings I'm experiencing right now, but for the most part it's simply a relief to know that there is hope for me yet.

I'm looking for housing, working, and I keep forgetting to buy vegetables.
That's pretty much it for now.

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